Sometimes life gets kinda scary. Especially when i feel that i am not totally in tune with what is happening around me. Sort of like a broken down radio dial stuck on some obscure frequency where you can hear snippets of songs and tons of static. I need to find something to keep me grounded. I found that if i just focus on one thing at one moment in time. One person. One issue. One concern. One problem. Things sort of stablize into some coherent whole for me to nail down. Other times, things are not so much as overwhelming that it would disorientate me. But i do feel momentarily incapacitated before recovering almost instantaneously and moving through with the flow of things.

That is sort of scary personally.
I hate running. One reason is that when i run, i cannot think. I am too busy trying to breathe. My mind is a blank as i concentrate on the most essential rhythm that would sustain my consciousness. In In Out. In In Out. I do not like this state of "mindlessness". I happen to feel that what makes me feel alive is the fact that i am conscious of the fact that i am thinking. Aware of my state of consiousness.

I don't particularly enjoy analyzing.
I just like running my fingers through the thoughts that filter through my head without having to act on them.